This is way beyond my remote concern

so ive come to the conclusion that im never going to be good enough for anyone or anything.

im really getting sick of being alone, and no matter how much a pussy it makes me sound like, its true. nobody wants to be alone. sure we all have those moments where you just want to be by yourself. but i dont think you should be alone for this fucking long. i just want someone.

but i guess its partly my fault. im not quite sure what im doing wrong, or if im doing anything wrong at all. but right now, the only explanation i have for being alone, is something im doing wrong. it only makes sense.

i keep thinking that i'll get fit and build muscle and all this shit. ive fucking lost 25 pouinds already. how much should i have to change myself just to attract somebuddy. it doesnt seem right, im just destined to be alone i guess.

today was the civil rights march.

5 hours of fun with all my friends.
we walked for 4 miles or something, but if flew by.
i feel good for doing it, plus its extra credit for my history class, which doesnt hurt me any.


and i love the song "Be" by common.
actually, i love every song by common.

i think my nana might give me her car as a confirmation gift to me.
that would be wickid sweet, but i have no idea if she really will.


it will be mine, oh yes......it will be mine

i have the stomach flu.
i can't stop throwing up.
i can't even hold down water for christ sake.

ive thrown up over 20 times today alone.
what a life eh?

i think today was the first day of fall.
my favorite season.

i have a game tomorow, great that im not playing...
this cast is seriously ruining my life.

and thanks to the fact that my dad doesnt listen to me and schedual an appointment to get it off i have to wear it for another fucking week.

this is also holding back me from getting my liscense.


skfjugnkwsng!!!!

im feeling so weird right now.
its not depression, im just sad.

im not going to bother with the whole "i want a girlfriend" because im pretty sure nobody likes being alone. so its rpetty pointless.

im way to out of it to write anymore.

 

this isnt my x-ray, but its just about the same.

i fractured my knuckle.
im in a cast for three weeks.

football is on hiatus for now i suppose.
if my scanner worked i could show everybody the Xray...but it doesn't.

im stopping this livejournal
im stopping my myspace.

they're just stupid.

go outside, be active, avoid morbid obeisity.

if you actually want to talk to me just IM me if im on.

xBrianRooneyx

im not going to even try to go out with girls from hull.


thats all i guess.

yesterday i woke up at 7 to go to my scrimmage against east boston. We actually did pretty well considering they went undefeated last year. right after that i went home and took a shower and changed, then me, kellie, matty, maddy, ian and tj went into the city to have some fun. while kellie and i were baording the T the doors closed...and we were seperated from the group...luckily we met up at the next stop.

then we took an array of buses and trains to get home along with a ride form maddy's mom. i came home and had dinner, and got ready for the end of the summer bonfire/campout. it was probably one of the best we've had. i had a great time, didnt get much sleep, and hung out with my friends all day.

and aside from a single cop coming and making us leave (for about twenty minutes) it was a scotch free night.

this has been one hell of a summer, and i dont regret a thing.

from the trip we had to the park the other night


( im so gangsta )

my legs are cramping up.

my super sweet sixteen makes me want to beat up snobby girls.

i just want to be with my friends, and have a girl that i can spend time with and never want to leave.

well, i came home an hour late tonight and my dad caught me so im grounded.
which is kinda stupid i guess, but i should have called, but when i do call he's always pissed at me for waking him up.

so i guess theres no way i can stay out passed 11...which is pretty early.