This is way beyond my remote concern

Mon, 31 Oct 2005 02:34:24 GMT

so ive come to the conclusion that im never going to be good enough for anyone or anything.

im really getting sick of being alone, and no matter how much a pussy it makes me sound like, its true. nobody wants to be alone. sure we all have those moments where you just want to be by yourself. but i dont think you should be alone for this fucking long. i just want someone.

but i guess its partly my fault. im not quite sure what im doing wrong, or if im doing anything wrong at all. but right now, the only explanation i have for being alone, is something im doing wrong. it only makes sense.

i keep thinking that i'll get fit and build muscle and all this shit. ive fucking lost 25 pouinds already. how much should i have to change myself just to attract somebuddy. it doesnt seem right, im just destined to be alone i guess.

Mon, 31 Oct 2005 00:25:06 GMT

today was the civil rights march.

5 hours of fun with all my friends.
we walked for 4 miles or something, but if flew by.
i feel good for doing it, plus its extra credit for my history class, which doesnt hurt me any.

and i love the song "Be" by common.
actually, i love every song by common.

Sun, 16 Oct 2005 14:32:38 GMT

i think my nana might give me her car as a confirmation gift to me.
that would be wickid sweet, but i have no idea if she really will.

it will be mine, oh yes......it will be mine

Tue, 11 Oct 2005 18:39:19 GMT

i have the stomach flu.
i can't stop throwing up.
i can't even hold down water for christ sake.

ive thrown up over 20 times today alone.
what a life eh?

Fri, 07 Oct 2005 00:40:52 GMT

I GOT MY LISCENSE!

Thu, 22 Sep 2005 23:48:57 GMT

i think today was the first day of fall.
my favorite season.

i have a game tomorow, great that im not playing...
this cast is seriously ruining my life.

and thanks to the fact that my dad doesnt listen to me and schedual an appointment to get it off i have to wear it for another fucking week.

this is also holding back me from getting my liscense.

skfjugnkwsng!!!!

Sun, 18 Sep 2005 22:08:05 GMT

im feeling so weird right now.
its not depression, im just sad.

im not going to bother with the whole "i want a girlfriend" because im pretty sure nobody likes being alone. so its rpetty pointless.

im way to out of it to write anymore.

Fri, 16 Sep 2005 15:24:30 GMT

this isnt my x-ray, but its just about the same.

Thu, 15 Sep 2005 02:20:30 GMT

i fractured my knuckle.
im in a cast for three weeks.

football is on hiatus for now i suppose.
if my scanner worked i could show everybody the Xray...but it doesn't.

Wed, 07 Sep 2005 21:28:38 GMT

im stopping this livejournal
im stopping my myspace.

they're just stupid.

go outside, be active, avoid morbid obeisity.

if you actually want to talk to me just IM me if im on.

xBrianRooneyx

Tue, 06 Sep 2005 18:23:31 GMT

im not going to even try to go out with girls from hull.

thats all i guess.

yesterday was awesome.

Sun, 04 Sep 2005 23:00:43 GMT

yesterday i woke up at 7 to go to my scrimmage against east boston. We actually did pretty well considering they went undefeated last year. right after that i went home and took a shower and changed, then me, kellie, matty, maddy, ian and tj went into the city to have some fun. while kellie and i were baording the T the doors closed...and we were seperated from the group...luckily we met up at the next stop.

then we took an array of buses and trains to get home along with a ride form maddy's mom. i came home and had dinner, and got ready for the end of the summer bonfire/campout. it was probably one of the best we've had. i had a great time, didnt get much sleep, and hung out with my friends all day.

and aside from a single cop coming and making us leave (for about twenty minutes) it was a scotch free night.

this has been one hell of a summer, and i dont regret a thing.

Thu, 01 Sep 2005 03:16:55 GMT

summers just about over.
its kind of bittersweet, i knew it would end sooner or later.

heres a re-cap of everything ive done this summer...

first off...i became the fonz.

got on the bad side of the homeless man who tried to force religoin on me.

Lived with these people.

swung from trees.

had Bonfires.

Got Paaaiiiiiiddddd....for a small portion of the summer.

.....

i got mah hurr did.

and thats about it for my summer, as far as my pictures go.
but just because the summers over doesnt mean that our lives are over as well, now we just have school.

Picture Update

Sat, 27 Aug 2005 22:35:25 GMT

from the trip we had to the park the other night

real gangstas roll on $29

pictures always get me so pumped

like i said...gangsta

THE CLAW + Grandpa Sweater = me being weired as hell

Fri, 26 Aug 2005 00:44:40 GMT

im pretty sore.
but chicks dig guys who work out

...imagine if i actually meant that, i am pretty sore though.

Wed, 24 Aug 2005 17:40:57 GMT

my legs are cramping up.

my super sweet sixteen makes me want to beat up snobby girls.

Tue, 23 Aug 2005 03:36:13 GMT

i blame my bad luck in relationships on chain letters.

Mon, 22 Aug 2005 16:57:16 GMT

i just want to be with my friends, and have a girl that i can spend time with and never want to leave.

so....

Sat, 20 Aug 2005 04:04:46 GMT

well, i came home an hour late tonight and my dad caught me so im grounded.
which is kinda stupid i guess, but i should have called, but when i do call he's always pissed at me for waking him up.

so i guess theres no way i can stay out passed 11...which is pretty early.

Wed, 17 Aug 2005 03:39:47 GMT

i need a girlfriend.

please, im not asking for much. just a girl that i can talk to and relate to on some kind of level. i feel like i'll never get to be with someone, i dont want to be one of those kids who seems destined to be alone, i know im a nice guy, but aparently girls dont seem to be into nice guys.

Fri, 12 Aug 2005 03:35:59 GMT

why is it that teens need alcohol in their system to have a good time?
i dont drink, smoke, snort coke, roll E or anything and i have a fun time nearly wherever i go.

its starting to piss me off that kids MY AGE drink constantly.
let alone snort coke and have babies.

i went into the city yesterday...and im going to hell.

Thu, 11 Aug 2005 19:51:01 GMT

hmmm....

Tue, 09 Aug 2005 18:36:30 GMT

i heard an exrpession the other day that i think fits into my situation as of right now....

"if it were raining pussy, id get hit with a dick"

nothing seems to be going my way lately, which i cant really control, but i feel somewhat at fault.
i have no job, no money, and for some reason...i can never seem to make it to captains practice...im a mess.

the only thing thats been good lately was the fact that i got my new shirt in the mail...and it fits well.

Sat, 06 Aug 2005 03:16:16 GMT

i saw wedding crashers tonight.
it was the best movie i have ever seen.

i'll see it again with anyone.

it has inspired me to play the feild.

Fri, 05 Aug 2005 03:59:04 GMT

my nana's giving me her car...its pretty sweet.

but i really am getting her camry, which is very nice of her.